04 January 2008

I feel like I have so much to say

But I'm not sure of the words. I don’t know how to find the words. I wish I could.

I wish I could fly. I wish I could travel somewhere far away from here. I wish I didn’t feel so broken down and looked down upon some times. I look at myself and think "I am nothing special" But am I much more than I know? Am I much more than I can offer?

I haven't found it yet, but there's a feeling within me of something great, something amazing that could change lives, or maybe just change one life. I just want feel like I've made an impact on something, that I've left a fingerprint somewhere.

There are so many people that I look up to and respect that have shaped my world and have helped me to look at my life differently. I want to have that effect. To touch someone, move someone; move them to tears, move them to change, move them to want to improve themselves and not for others, not for the sake of "being better", but to glorify God, because they've found something shining within themselves that they never knew existed before. That something is inside of all of us. I guess that doesn't make me special, like I thought, but it doesn't make me anything less.

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